Truth Singer & Social Shaman

A site for Personal Mythology and Social Shamanism. A place for our voices to speak their truths and share our unique selves without fear. Dedicated to living a life on purpose, helping others find their visions and lay the path to happiness. A home for all students of life striving towards spirituality, serving the universe and living our divine plans.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

December on the Double M Ranch...

Well, having a few difficulties with the company. That's definitely going to create more work than I wanted to cope with but oh well, sometimes it's unavoidable.

Spent time outside with my brother while he was fixing the truck and took a few pics of the critters. What a bunch of characters. The little billy goat, Stranger, was thrown over our fence last year by someone who I guess thought we needed another goat. So one day he was just there. Went to feed the goats and there was an extra lol. Oddly enough we've sold most of them and kept him and the little nanny goat, Serea. She's pregnant right now and should be having babies sometime in Feb or March. The later the better. Though honestly if she's this huge now I don't know how she's going to last til then lol.
Anyway, Stranger was goofing around - he seems to have three things on his mind at any one time; sex, food, whacking horns and challenging someone to a head whacking duel. Here he is challenging our little mare, Duchess, and our big truck to a duel.
So last night it starts raining like mad, flashes of lightning and the kind of huge thunderclaps that shake the whole house. Gotta admire mother nature's handiwork when she gets to going! I love storms, so I was awake for hours listening to it. Then I get up and go outside to feed the animals and lo and behold! The neighbor's dead tree has broken and the top 30 feet are lying in our rock field.
So we drive the John Deere over and the pick up truck and start filling them with broken branches, sticks, twigs and logs. Had to saw some of it apart but it went fast enough I guess. Just strikes me as odd how, no matter where they start at, the neighbor's trees always fall on OUR side of the fence. I was thinking I should make a christmas card from the picture and send it to them saying Merry Christmas, your present is my not making you chop this crap up....again....any chance you will chop those down now? Before they take out the fence and you have to replace it?

Doubt they'd get the hint. They never do.

I did a christmas craft show at the beginning of the month. It didn't do well, not nearly as well as we'd hoped. I think a lot of families are just struggling to keep the heat on and food on the table. Especially in Arkansas where a "good job" pays less than minimum wage was in Seattle! Here's a shot of the lay out I had at the show, maybe it's too "busy" or something? I thought it looked great though! The lady next to me made 2 things, homemade recipe for red tomato relish and roasted green tomato relish. They were a bit too vinagary for my taste but I did like the red one pretty well. She was a real sweetheart too, so I had someone to chat with between lookers. I about went nuts on one lady who broke some clay garlands and ran away without paying for it, and another woman who's little boy had a gross nose and started pulling on one of the hats over his face to his lips. Smearing the inside with snot as he went. Fortunately his grandmother had some cooth, unlike his mom, and immediately shot her daughter a mean look, paid for the hat, apologized and dragged the little boy off. Nice to know someone in that family had manners!

So I guess that's enough blabbing for now. I'm sure I could rattle on for days but no doubt, I'd get tired of typing long before that point! Have a great tomorrow~ Merry Christmas (yes, I'm saying it and not "happy holidays" if you don't like it, tough, I believe in Christmas!)

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

A bunny thing happened....


I'm having issues with our bunny boy, Roger. (I didn't pick that gloriously obvious name for him either.) He's the sweetest little guy, white with red eyes and soft pliable bunny for most things. He doesn't even flinch when I clip his claws. Try to pick him up though and all bunny hell breaks loose. Best hope you have on enough padding cause rabbit claws cut fast and long!

Seems before when someone picked him up they took him outside with his little bunny friends and left them in a fenced area with hawks circling above. One by one they were all introduced to the bottomside of a hawk or just missed being lunch. So I can totally understand why he might have issues with leaving the cage.

The thing is though, occasionally I'd like to take him out for some fresh food and movement. I have a tiny little harness for him to wear and a leash attached so I don't lose track of him even if he spooks. And hey, I'm selfish, it would be fun to hold him and cuddle him. Assuming I don't have to dress like a doberman pincher trainer to do it!

So I plan to clip his little claws later today and warm a towel up in the dryer, then go out and scoop him into it and hold tight (but not too tight) til he calms down. That's the plan. I'll let you know how many stitches it takes to put him back lol.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Wow what an ordeal


Amber Narae w/Ian (top), Olivia Elizabeth w/Ariana (R), & Ariana Nikole with William (L),

A lot has happened in two years! I have moved from Seattle, broken up with my boyfriend of five years, lived in a women's home for a while, had a beautiful granddaughter born and another grandson on the way (David but I call him Baird, he's due this Christmas!) and I'm in Arkansas now helping my 71 year old mother start a ranch raising miniature goats and miniature quarterhorses as well as starting an interstate trucking company! Whew! I'm exhausted already lol.

I'll load some pics up soon with the horses on them and such but mostly I just wanted to get back to what I had originally intended this website to be when I started. Someplace to muse about spiritual things and my inner dialog in the hopes that somehow it will help someone else!
Our miniature quarter horse Pegasus with his winter coat on, napping
Anyway, I'm back online, spending most of my time at Girlfriendscafe.com and Godlight.uk.co (I love this site!) So if you are looking for me, that's where I'll be. Be safe everyone!

Sinsual

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Saturday, December 08, 2007

The Orca Totem One of my Strongest Influences

Orca - Killer Whale Totem

I took this from another website but thought it would be nice to have here since this is one of my strongest totems. I have always dreamed of Orcas speaking to me, calling to me, assisting me or those I ask help for. I am very very sensitive to sound and I have a story that illustrates just how connected I feel to these wonderful powerful creatures.

I was sitting with a friend in Anchorage at a restaurant on the water called Simon's & Seaforts. We were half way through a nice lunch in February when my friend commented on how distracted I seemed. I told him I could swear I hear whales or dolphins laughing and squeeing but I know that's not possible as we are indoors and no one else seems to hear it.

We noted it was 2 p.m. and chatted for a while and I tried to stay focused on the conversation while also acknowledging the whale song I heard. The next day I was at work and my best friend Steve calls me up and asks if I've seen the paper. I hadn't. He came to get me for lunch later and showed it to me. I had to laugh because on the cover of the paper was a shot taken about 8 miles or so off-shore showing a pod of killer whales had corraled a pod of beluga whales into a shoal area and boxed them in.

The paper noted it was taken at 2:00 p.m. the day before. Just outside Anchorage.The pilot managed to fly over and took the picture with perfect clarity. I felt my heart jump for joy because I realized that they had no intention of killing the beluga whales they merely were having fun corraling them and to this day I think what I heard was their laughter at the fun they were having.

Sinsual

The website is no longer there :( so I can't link anyone to it.
But there are other great websites with similar info out there!

~Life Paths~
Animal Totems & Earth Medicine
Spirit of Orca with Wolfs Moon

Role: ~Guardian of the Cosmic Memory~
Lesson: Discover the Song of the Soul
Element: Water
Wind: North ~Land of the Elders/Wisdom~
Medicine: Alchemy


~Keywords~

Guardian of the Cosmic Memory
Alchemy
Creativity
Healing through Sound
Sensitivity
Spiritual Insight
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Glimmering light from the Center of the Cosmos Ribbons of purple,
aqua and gold Pulsing, dancing to the thrum of the Orca’s Call
She calls to Humanity Loving, gentle soul
With eyes in whose depths star fields shine
Guardian of Cosmic Memory
The pain of a thousand wounded souls tattered,
adrift on a sea of isolation,
beckon Her and she responds with tenderness & compassion,
tempered with the knowledge of when to encourage the ~Lost~ to swim alone.
The Leap is made as the Ancestors call and she soars in bliss toward the stars,
the joyful song of the Star Nation resounding . . .
Welcome Home, dear Sister, welcome Home

~Guardian of the Cosmic Memory~
For many indigenous peoples, Orca (also known as the ~Sea Wolf,~) is the Guardian of the Cosmic Memory.

Beliefs surrounding the Orca`s origin vary from tribe to tribe, with some tribes holding the belief that the ~Sea Wolf~ was created when a young man was walking along the beach and heard a pitiful whining. Following the sound, he soon discovered two young wolf cubs that he took back to his lodge and raised them to adulthood.

One day he awoke to discover that the wolves had left him and puzzled, he followed their tracks down to the beach where he had first found them. As he approached the ocean, he saw the wolves swimming out into the ocean where they killed a whale. Much to his amazement, the wolves then brought the dead whale to shore so that the man might have its meat and make use of the blubber and bones.

Things continued such for many days until the time came that the beach was now littered with decaying whales as the wolves were hunting more whales than the man living alone could possibly harvest. Seeing such great waste, the ~One Above~ called upon the Thunder Beings, the Rains and the Fog so that the wolves would not be able to find any whales to kill.

Grandmother Ocean became so tumultuous that the wolves were unable to find their way back to land and were forced to stay out in the water where they were transformed to ~Sea Wolves~ or as they are known today, Killer Whales.

Other tribes believe that the Sky (or Star) Nation brought Orca to Ina Maka (Mother Earth) from the Dog Star Sirius (the Home of the Ancestors). It was then that this ~Great Wolf~ was made Keeper of the Ocean, and Guardian of the Cosmic Memory . . . hence the name ~Sea (for the waters in which She would now dwell) Wolf~ (in remembrance of the Home World)~.

***Like their Spirit Totem, the two-legged beside whom Orca (and all Dolphin & Whale Totems) swims, has an unconscious memory of their Origin and Heritage. This is a deeply buried Memory that has been imprinted upon their Soul, cosmic knowledge and recollections of the ~home world~ and of the Ancestors. Though this Cosmic Memory is deeply buried even beyond the levels of the ~sub-conscious,~ the Sleeper may Awaken at any stage when the time fast approaches for the Ancestors Return. Often times this Memory is Awakened via sound, or as other soul-group members are re-connected as ~Pods.~

It is believed that we are fast approaching the Center of the Universe, an event that happens approximately every 24-25,000 years. When the Ina Maka enters the Center of the Universe, the opportunity is had for all of Human Consciousness to make the step across the bridge or through the Doorway into the Fifth World of Peace and Ultimate Illumination. The next such date of this "occurrence" is believed will take place in 2012.

At some later stage, a separate page will be written dedicated to this ~Prophecy,~ and will be a World Wide opportunity, not exclusive to any one clan or ~tribe~ of souls.

How this is significant for All with a Totem of Dolphin or Whale, is that this awareness is even closer to the surface than it may be for ~Others~ as these are the souls that have agreed to light the lantern of Illumination that Others may find their way across, as He/She reminds us that we are all connected, we are all ONE.***

~Creativity~

Many creation legends and theories are centered around the belief that all Life sprang from the Ocean, and that members of the Dolphin and Whale family are a Symbol of that Creative Spark at the height of its expression.

Orca teaches us the Power of Breath and Creativity, and in observing the manner in which any of the Dolphin/Whale Totems breathe, this is significant in applying those same principles to one beside whom this Animal Ally swims.

As the Orca surfaces for air, they are commonly sighted ~breaching~ free of the water, a behavior that marine biologists do not completely understand as it does not appear to serve any ~useful~ or biological purpose. The Orca could just as easily merely rise to the surface of the water (as it does at other times) to take in the necessary oxygen, yet will often breach the water in what appears to be a desire to leap back ~Home.~

***For the two-legged beside whom Orca swims, the above carries a double meaning. Firstly, there is the longing within the Orca (Whale/Dolphin) Soul to return ~Home~ to the Ancestors and all that came before. This sense of longing varies . . . at times so silent as to be nearly non-existent, at other moments mild, acknowledged then released, and still other times felt as sharp and keen as a jab to the heart, filling this gentle soul with a nearly overwhelming sense of

~Disconnection.~

The second meaning that this behavior carries with it is a vehicle through which creativity, insight and emotions may be bottled or stuffed. When this is the case, and the Orca soul has succeeded in pushing their feelings so deep, or when they have subjugated their own needs/wants in deference to an ~Other`s~, the result is that those feelings must find some means of release. Often these thoughts and feelings then surface in an explosive rush that may be quite overwhelming for these gentle souls.

Likewise, when their creativity has been "thwarted" for whatever reason, an inner tension builds within the Orca Soul. If an outlet is not found for either the repressed thoughts, emotions or creativity, there may be a physical manifestation in the form of the on-set of an illness, in particular those affecting the lungs such as asthma, bronchitis, chest colds or even pneumonia.

To combat this (and is also a method that will be mentioned under the Healing keyword below), when tensions are building from suppressed or repressed thoughts, emotions or creativity, it would be wise for the Two-Legged with a Dolphin or Whale Totem (such as Orca), to observe, then imitate, the manner in which these Sea Mammals breathe.

Taking in a lung full of air, filling the chest with as much oxygen as possible as though about to dive into the ocean`s depths, holding for as long as comfortably possible, then exhaling in an explosive manner that imitates the sound of the Orca surfacing for air and exhaling through their blowhole.

There is no set number of times that this ought to be repeated, however keep in mind that too much of this deep breathing may induce light-headedness and thus the exercise is best performed in a safe, relaxed seated position. With each inhale and resultant exhale, a personalized affirmation might be utilized, such as for emotional release, "I freely, lovingly and effortlessly express myself in a manner that is respectful of the Self and of Others."
An affirmation for releasing Creative Potential might be such as, "The Creative Force and Genius of the Universe flows effortlessly and lovingly to and through me. I am a tube through which Great Mystery works."

In both instances, it is embracing the Medicine of Orca to better assist the compassionate and creative being beside whom Orca swims.***

~Sensitivity~

Like all members of the Dolphin family, (Orca`s are not whales as many believe, but are the largest member of the Dolphin family), Orca`s are highly intelligent and sensitive creatures, with a perception and awareness that is astounding.

The care that they exhibit toward their offspring and to the sick and injured members of the pod, as well as the dedication to all ~pod~ members, goes far beyond the explanation of mere biology alone, and seems indicative of a heightened sense of spirituality and genuine caring.
As a matriarchal society, Orca males will stay beside their mother throughout their lifetime, offering her protection and support. The only time that a male will leave his mother`s Pod is to answer the call of a female Orca in estrus. Once the mating with that non Pod member female is complete, the male will return once again to swim beside his mother and siblings.

***For the two-legged beside whom Orca swims, there will be a great deal of emotional and ~psychic~ sensitivity. These are the individuals who possess a heightened awareness of the suffering of Others, and will immediately sense the pain that may lay behind the casual words spoken or assurances that "everything is fine." Some inner ~knowing~ within the Orca soul will be triggered in those instances, a reflection of the Orca`s own sonar capabilities.

Although there is a marked degree of sensitivity within the Orca Soul, there also exists the ability to draw back from actually taking on the pain and suffering of those around them. It is an inherent understanding that to do so, would "rob" that one whom they desire to assist, from the Life Lessons that soul is here to learn. Yet often this inherent knowledge is only awakened after some painful lessons of their own, though once the memory has been awakened, it serves them well in their effort and "call" to assist their fellow two-leggeds.***

~Healing through Communication~
All Dolphins and Whales are thought to have healing abilities as an intrinsic part of their unique

~Medicine.~

Even scientists and marine biologists seem to be warming to this long held belief as they are witnessing for themselves the healing interaction that is had between mentally and/or physically challenged children and members of the Dolphin family.

With Orca in particular, it is believed that it is her ~voice~ that is the true healing agent.

***The two-legged who is blessed to have Orca as a Primary Totem (Power, Theme or Mission), will likewise possess an innate healing ability. This ~Gift~ will differ in both intensity (from slight to powerful), and in manifestation (energy healing from distance, laying on of hands, etc.,) yet is one of the Gifts that the Great Mystery has lovingly bestowed upon these Souls.

As with their Animal Ally, the two-legged Orca soul will have the ability to heal through communication. This ability however, is not limited to speaking alone, but also includes all other forms of communication as in the written word, as well as through artistic expressions (painting images, playing a musical instrument or singing).

Most commonly, the healing will come through the voice, and it is also through the resonance of sound that the Orca Soul will experience the awakening of those memories that have been stored on a soul or cellular level. This may occur through hearing a certain piece of music not previously heard before, the click or calls of a Dolphin or Whale while watching a program on these beautiful creatures or having a first-hand encounter, or through hearing for the first time a member of their ~Pod~ (or Soul Group) speak.

Though it may take many years of development to become consciously aware of when this is occurring, once the ability has been honed, the Orca individual may then learn to tune into this Cosmic Memory through a chant or mantra he/she may sing or hum. This same "cosmic song" may then also be employed to heal and awaken ~Others,~ and in times of physical illness or stress (as previously stated physical manifestations will tend to surface in the lungs) employing the technique of "Dolphin/Whale Breathing" while assist in expediting the healing process.***

~Alchemy.~

Alchemy, is the ability to transform raw or "base" materials into matter of a higher vibration, nature or quality. In relation to ~Sea Wolf,~ it is believed that as Guardian to the Cosmic Memory, Orca has the ability to create portals through which the ~Home World~ (the doorway to the Star Nation) may be reached.

***For the two-legged with this power animal ally, the Orca is believed to be a powerful lantern of enlightenment, illuminating the pathway for those who desire to step beyond the ~mundane~ world of the physical senses, to the magical shores of cosmic understanding.
As they journey through their early lives (and early childhood/adulthood of the current lifetime), Orca souls experience many lessons in making the best possible out of often very meager or painful experiences. They do not enter into an "easy" existence . . . to the contrary, their life is often met with numerous challenges, more so than most around them to the point where friends or loved ones may even comment on the number or frequency with which these hardships are encountered.

Yet beneath all of the trauma and pain, there is an inner sense that there is "more" to the experiences. It is thus that the two-legged beside whom Orca swims (with sufficient maturation and detached observation), learns to fashion the Golden Staff of Enlightenment from the minerals of past experiences and lessons learned.***